I acknowledged my status in this world. Towards my Lord the Almighty, the authority and my beloved parents. I am a servant, a subject and a daughter.
I will always acknowledge my role, to obey all His syariah, rules and obligation as restricted in the Quran. But why is it so hard for me to implement it. Astaghfirullah...forgive me my Lord, for not be able to live up to your order. Ya Allah, help me in finding the truth to my path, help me in enhancing my Iman, guide me in my life, lead me to my success, Islam's success. Ameen, ya rabb al-alameen...
I will always realize my role as a subject to my country. To follow the regulations restricted in the constitution. However, if the regulations against me to obey my Lord the Almighty, I will stop. From obeying them. There is not need to shout what is right, what is wrong. When I practice what is right, it shows. Little knowledge is better when it is practice.
I will always appreciate my status as a daughter. For it I can repay my parents' sacrifice. For it, I knew how it feels to be a daughter, I learned to care, I learned to love important people in my life. For my rude words and actions, I would like to apologize. "Ya Rabbi, forgive my sins, and my parents sins, and bless them as they bless me when I was a kid. Ameen. "
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
long story just being told
this is my long past experience regarding klcc. once we enter suria KLCC we find it very interesting with too many shops and cafe. if you go there by putra LRT, the first thing you will notice is a long que for a hot "Roti Boy" which will make you go for it too. before this, the que had disturbed other visitor to pass by the corner. the company now has renovate their store to fix the position of que problem. plus, their product is increasing, up to the taste of everyone. recently i just spent rm14.10 for the bread+mini pizza+croissant+tuna cheese+cheese stick. hmmm yummy!
the next thing you will focus on a juice and sandwich stop. the juice stall provide a very weird drink which is "grass juice". i don't know, maybe it is weird for Malaysian, not for others. then, when you are heading on, you will reach the center on Suria KLCC in which, at your left, there are information counter, UNIQLO,swatch, and an escalator. behide the escalator, there is actually aunty annes! a yummy one too! on your right, there is a lift and escalator to the next level.
i would like to take you to the most frequent place that i hang out with anep. ladies and gentlemen, you just need to proceed your step straight, until you find an escalator, and go up until the 2nd level, you will notice coffee beans store with lots of customer. you might have to wait for 10 or 15 minutes before you will be seated. when approaching the counter, a friendly and helpful barrister will take your order and put your name on your drink cup. for drink, i would like to suggest you a nice drink. not too sweet. not too creamy. not too weird. but very pleasant to be tasted. Caramel Hazelnut. a nice try when we both make order for our first time and we never stop from ordering it. when your name is called, it means your order is ready. you just need to open the sandwiches that you bought at Roti Boy before and Caramel Hazelnut as your evening drink. that would be nice!
a nice taste while reading.
other than nice stop for your evening tea, KLCC is the place to rock! outside Suria KLCC, a huge park provided for people to bring their kids and friends. its just a suitable place to have fun. a huge playground is built by various theme. all the playgrounds are connected to each other and become a huge one.
we rock!
there is also a water park for small kids to play around with new friends. a water park with no entrance fees needed. when it comes to prayer time, a nice and comfortable mosque is exist at the end of the park. it is very convenient to visitor to take a quick nap if they are tired. an open concept is given to pleased Muslim tourist to come to Malaysia.
the next thing you will focus on a juice and sandwich stop. the juice stall provide a very weird drink which is "grass juice". i don't know, maybe it is weird for Malaysian, not for others. then, when you are heading on, you will reach the center on Suria KLCC in which, at your left, there are information counter, UNIQLO,swatch, and an escalator. behide the escalator, there is actually aunty annes! a yummy one too! on your right, there is a lift and escalator to the next level.
i would like to take you to the most frequent place that i hang out with anep. ladies and gentlemen, you just need to proceed your step straight, until you find an escalator, and go up until the 2nd level, you will notice coffee beans store with lots of customer. you might have to wait for 10 or 15 minutes before you will be seated. when approaching the counter, a friendly and helpful barrister will take your order and put your name on your drink cup. for drink, i would like to suggest you a nice drink. not too sweet. not too creamy. not too weird. but very pleasant to be tasted. Caramel Hazelnut. a nice try when we both make order for our first time and we never stop from ordering it. when your name is called, it means your order is ready. you just need to open the sandwiches that you bought at Roti Boy before and Caramel Hazelnut as your evening drink. that would be nice!
a nice taste while reading.
other than nice stop for your evening tea, KLCC is the place to rock! outside Suria KLCC, a huge park provided for people to bring their kids and friends. its just a suitable place to have fun. a huge playground is built by various theme. all the playgrounds are connected to each other and become a huge one.
we rock!
other than Roti Boy, Coffee Beans and the park, KLCC also provided a visit to their highest bridge in the world. the twin tower connected with a bridge that open for visitor every morning and evening. to enter the area, one must que for the ticket at early morning. as early as you can. when anep and me come at 9a.m, we are the last visitors to go up there and our turn was at 4p.m. from the above, you can see the KL view, the whole park, the top of Suria KLCC. all are decorated as it in a theme.
you will be given a pass as a passenger. the lift take about half an hour to reach at the bridge level. me. waiting to be calling to the lift.
at the bridge.
i wish i could fly.
the top of Suria KLCC. nicely decorated as a science building.
the KLCC park from the above view.Tuesday, May 17, 2011
my journey
13th may. morning. i recieved a massege that tok was badly critical. few hours later, another beep sounded and she was gone. i cried thinking about how i want to be in her funeral. to give my last respect for her. suddenly my phone ringing and it was abah. he let me know that mak cik will come and pick me then we both will go back to kampung together. i really thought she'll drive her honda but she stright away went to KLIA. all right, i kenw straight away that we were risking our time for getting there on time.
2 p.m, out turn didn't yet called. 2.30. ding! makcik go to the counter, asking for the earliest ticket and the possible one wad at 6.20 p.m. obviously we missed the funeral. i heard they said 4p.m but i didn't know what it is about. makcik told me later that it was for the waiting list pessenger. she tried to include us but we will be the 7th and the 8th. impossible for us to get the seat. we flew at 6.20p.m.
while waiting at gate 9, i saw several men were loading fuel into the planes. there were two pipes come out from the lorry. one headed to the plane and the other one goes down into a hole at the floor. i was wandering why is that a hole. why don't the pump straight away to the plane. only for the plane. it was later told by my aunt that all modern airport install the under ground fuel tank.
6.20p.m, i was in the plane. not boarding yet. i saw the staff were loading bags. there were 2 person following him at the back and both of them started throwing bag up at the escalator. they are banglashee. working here. very thin. short. they are not smiling. its was hot probably. only two of them do the work. the malay staff just instruct them with his index finger here and there. they followed whitout saying anything. i felt sorry for them. can't the malay staff ask them nicely? or the malay people easily get arrogant? or it is actually the real system. only he knows.
2 p.m, out turn didn't yet called. 2.30. ding! makcik go to the counter, asking for the earliest ticket and the possible one wad at 6.20 p.m. obviously we missed the funeral. i heard they said 4p.m but i didn't know what it is about. makcik told me later that it was for the waiting list pessenger. she tried to include us but we will be the 7th and the 8th. impossible for us to get the seat. we flew at 6.20p.m.
while waiting at gate 9, i saw several men were loading fuel into the planes. there were two pipes come out from the lorry. one headed to the plane and the other one goes down into a hole at the floor. i was wandering why is that a hole. why don't the pump straight away to the plane. only for the plane. it was later told by my aunt that all modern airport install the under ground fuel tank.
6.20p.m, i was in the plane. not boarding yet. i saw the staff were loading bags. there were 2 person following him at the back and both of them started throwing bag up at the escalator. they are banglashee. working here. very thin. short. they are not smiling. its was hot probably. only two of them do the work. the malay staff just instruct them with his index finger here and there. they followed whitout saying anything. i felt sorry for them. can't the malay staff ask them nicely? or the malay people easily get arrogant? or it is actually the real system. only he knows.
Friday, May 13, 2011
TOK
13th may 2011 : the last day all of us saw her. but not me. the last day for me was on the 9th of may. from the story i heard, she was having a complication from the leakage in her stomach (from the last post). blood blew out from her mouth before her last breath. while they were trying to get tissue and all that, her breath went up and down. they teach her to say the syahadah. not more than a minute, her breath stop. she was not here anymore. we all miss her. we will.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
to all kpop fans!!
30 minutes ago i found something that i coudl call it loser. while i was checking up my fb, i saw a post made by widad says that one of our fail product in malaysia. perhaps, this is the result of plagiarism. yes. PLAGIARISM. have you all heard the name of 'Gula-gula'? one of girl band group in malaysia. although they mentioned that they are not copying anyone, but their style, appearance and image say the other way around. i tried to search their songsin 4shared but something else appeared, sounds like a dangdut song. or maybe it is it. i haven't try yet to search them in you tube because this is not my note book and it was sponsored by UDA and it is not allowed flash player to be upgraded. i think they are available at you tube.
so. i click on the link given. it connects me to their official blog. it is closed for upgrading process. but they provide a link to another website. their official website. what makes they proved that they are loser is they only got 3 followers. i'm not saying that mine is a lot but as a debuted website, how can the number be so small.
then i tried to googled them. from the results show, i found their link is at the lowest of other related result of 'gula-gula'. so i clicked it. it was a media online which did a review about them. from 319 comments that the article received, only 1 or 2 comments support or give neutral comment. the others are giving negative feedback over this group.
suddenly i remembered back a presentation given by my classmate on kpop wave in malaysia. rather than positive, i would say the negative impact is more obvious. but i do not want to put blame on kpop industry. they are just like the hollywood, bollywood and other entertainment industries all over the world. they just want to entertain people and they really do their job. however, for this people (gula-gula) to follow the same motive (to entertain), they fail. they simply imitate kpop version of image. even 4 of them are non-muslim, the appearance that they give cannot be accepted by malaysian. but why such appearance is acceptable if it is done by outside groups? they are also non-muslim. what ever answer that people might give, this is the reality of malaysian, we cannot accept it. to be a new celebrity, you can dress all the way you want but if you imitate somebody else, people will urge you to find your own identity. Yuna for example, she is accepted, not merely because she wares 'hijab' or something but the original style of her, did pleased her fans. good job Yuna.
http://www.beautifulnara.com/kumpulan-gula-gula-orang-malaysia-feeling-kpop/
so. i click on the link given. it connects me to their official blog. it is closed for upgrading process. but they provide a link to another website. their official website. what makes they proved that they are loser is they only got 3 followers. i'm not saying that mine is a lot but as a debuted website, how can the number be so small.
then i tried to googled them. from the results show, i found their link is at the lowest of other related result of 'gula-gula'. so i clicked it. it was a media online which did a review about them. from 319 comments that the article received, only 1 or 2 comments support or give neutral comment. the others are giving negative feedback over this group.
suddenly i remembered back a presentation given by my classmate on kpop wave in malaysia. rather than positive, i would say the negative impact is more obvious. but i do not want to put blame on kpop industry. they are just like the hollywood, bollywood and other entertainment industries all over the world. they just want to entertain people and they really do their job. however, for this people (gula-gula) to follow the same motive (to entertain), they fail. they simply imitate kpop version of image. even 4 of them are non-muslim, the appearance that they give cannot be accepted by malaysian. but why such appearance is acceptable if it is done by outside groups? they are also non-muslim. what ever answer that people might give, this is the reality of malaysian, we cannot accept it. to be a new celebrity, you can dress all the way you want but if you imitate somebody else, people will urge you to find your own identity. Yuna for example, she is accepted, not merely because she wares 'hijab' or something but the original style of her, did pleased her fans. good job Yuna.
http://www.beautifulnara.com/kumpulan-gula-gula-orang-malaysia-feeling-kpop/
Saturday, April 30, 2011
budak2
they exhausted me! but i get fun :)
ti-in yang nga majok. budin malas dah nk layan. hadif tenampak pulak pini nga snap. hadif pandai ckp cina...pi beli air kat vending machine and terserempak ngn amoi, terus ckp cina konon2 nk sembang. budak yang pantang tengok amoi. yang lagi kelakarnya, hadif ternampak la pulak massege yang nga di send atas nama mohd. hanif. dengan konfiden nya, "aik, tu awat kak pini hantaq kat nama kami?" aku bingung. pikir punya pikir punya pikir... Ooo, H-A-D-I-F dengan H-A-N-I-F kan bezanya D dan N...
pini yang semangat memetik buah jambu air di depan umah sambil berangan memetik epal seperti di London :)
ti-in yang nga majok. budin malas dah nk layan. hadif tenampak pulak pini nga snap. hadif pandai ckp cina...pi beli air kat vending machine and terserempak ngn amoi, terus ckp cina konon2 nk sembang. budak yang pantang tengok amoi. yang lagi kelakarnya, hadif ternampak la pulak massege yang nga di send atas nama mohd. hanif. dengan konfiden nya, "aik, tu awat kak pini hantaq kat nama kami?" aku bingung. pikir punya pikir punya pikir... Ooo, H-A-D-I-F dengan H-A-N-I-F kan bezanya D dan N...
pini yang semangat memetik buah jambu air di depan umah sambil berangan memetik epal seperti di London :)
this is me
what i have possessed in these ten days is fat. i am getting bigger than before.
muka da bulat :)
badan pun :)
kenapa? why?
ni la keja yang ada pun time lapang. makan makan dan makan.
shu, dasat x?
muka da bulat :)
badan pun :)
kenapa? why?
ni la keja yang ada pun time lapang. makan makan dan makan.shu, dasat x?
Friday, April 29, 2011
hospital
i might skip the details for day 5-10 but here the summary.
we were relieved to hear that her kidney can still be used.when they run the dialysis process, they gave her antibiotic and other medicine to cure her kidney. the machine ran 24 hours non stop for about 4 days. and at the same time she started to produce some urine. however, her swallowed did not get better. that's probably because her kidneys do not 100% healed.
for 5 to 6 days i repeat the same routine, wake up, wash clothes, go to hospital (at 10.30am), eat, wait until 12.30 for visiting tok, eat, wait at 'rumah pelawat' and eat some snack until 4.30pm for the next visit until 7pm, and eat again, then sleep. all my clothes are getting smaller. not me who is getting bigger ;p
3 days ago tok opened her eyes. but her condition was really weak. she keep saying that they want to kill her. (depa nk bunuh aku..depa tu la..nk bunuh aku). i kept saying to her that the staff were not try to kill her, but they want to heal her. (depa bukan nk bunuh tok, depa nk berubat ja...) but she refused to accept my words and still with her words. (berubat apa...depa nk bunuh aku.) and she cried. her hands were not moving. same goes to her legs. the only part that moved was her face. at this day, the dialysis machine was stopped due to the increasing of her urine. the next day the hospital decided to run a scan to see her stomach condition after a week of operation. how the stomach responds towards the medicine that they given. during the scanning process, they put something into her blood. i'm not sure what it is but from what i heard, it seems like color liquid. i don't know what the function of it. and because of that, they have to dialysis her again for more 4 hours to clean back her blood. her kidney still cannot process heavy problem.
currently she have to take back the oxygen pipe to assist her breath taking rate because she's getting weak. and she still in sleep. the nurse told me as long as the oxygen pipe is in her mouth, we have to give her sleeping medicine to let her feel no pain.
we were relieved to hear that her kidney can still be used.when they run the dialysis process, they gave her antibiotic and other medicine to cure her kidney. the machine ran 24 hours non stop for about 4 days. and at the same time she started to produce some urine. however, her swallowed did not get better. that's probably because her kidneys do not 100% healed.
for 5 to 6 days i repeat the same routine, wake up, wash clothes, go to hospital (at 10.30am), eat, wait until 12.30 for visiting tok, eat, wait at 'rumah pelawat' and eat some snack until 4.30pm for the next visit until 7pm, and eat again, then sleep. all my clothes are getting smaller. not me who is getting bigger ;p
3 days ago tok opened her eyes. but her condition was really weak. she keep saying that they want to kill her. (depa nk bunuh aku..depa tu la..nk bunuh aku). i kept saying to her that the staff were not try to kill her, but they want to heal her. (depa bukan nk bunuh tok, depa nk berubat ja...) but she refused to accept my words and still with her words. (berubat apa...depa nk bunuh aku.) and she cried. her hands were not moving. same goes to her legs. the only part that moved was her face. at this day, the dialysis machine was stopped due to the increasing of her urine. the next day the hospital decided to run a scan to see her stomach condition after a week of operation. how the stomach responds towards the medicine that they given. during the scanning process, they put something into her blood. i'm not sure what it is but from what i heard, it seems like color liquid. i don't know what the function of it. and because of that, they have to dialysis her again for more 4 hours to clean back her blood. her kidney still cannot process heavy problem.
currently she have to take back the oxygen pipe to assist her breath taking rate because she's getting weak. and she still in sleep. the nurse told me as long as the oxygen pipe is in her mouth, we have to give her sleeping medicine to let her feel no pain.
the Kidney stone. looks like 'kacang' in real.
my first night with tok in ward Kenanga 4A.
after 2nd operation.
she was awake for a day.
we relieved for a while when seeing only 1 medicine was left.
they managed to stop the oxygen tube for a while. her breath was strong enough this time.
unfortunately she slept back after the scanning process 2 days ago.
the 2nd dialysis machine to clean her blood from some color liquid.
her last update that i have taken. these bags are connected into her stomach. her stomach is still released medical waste from the second operation. the medicine that the doctors gave is to clean her lower part of her stomach that was infected by leakage at her intestine. as long as she still produces these waste, she can't get better.
my first night with tok in ward Kenanga 4A.
after 2nd operation.
she was awake for a day.
we relieved for a while when seeing only 1 medicine was left.
they managed to stop the oxygen tube for a while. her breath was strong enough this time.
unfortunately she slept back after the scanning process 2 days ago.
the 2nd dialysis machine to clean her blood from some color liquid.
her last update that i have taken. these bags are connected into her stomach. her stomach is still released medical waste from the second operation. the medicine that the doctors gave is to clean her lower part of her stomach that was infected by leakage at her intestine. as long as she still produces these waste, she can't get better.
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