alone

all are going back to their hometown. and i'm still here at my room. packaging all the stuff including all my comics to a one big bag.

i miss nayibah, and tried to find her at ym.. she did not appear. but fadil did. hehe...
but it was a bit disappointed, i want to talk with her, i want to tell her my depression.. but at the end, i just end up with doing my assignment.

and today, again, i came to cc, and i found her! haha.. but things happen to the other way.
shes the one who tell me about her story..

hehe.. whatever.. i miss her~

favorite

i had notice that all my friends got their own favorite celebrity. and 'that person' is always be chnaged due to the season. i list the example here:-

this is S-u-h-a-d-a in love with K-i-m H-e-e C-h-u-l

.......................

this is L-i-y-a-n-a in love with T-e-p-p-e-i

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this is F-a-t-e-n in love with C-h-o S-i W-o-n

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this is N-a-n-a in ove with S-h-i-n-e-e

...................

and the las but not least,

this is me ( A-p-p-i-n-i) in love with K-e-n-i-c-h-i

.................

hahahaha. that is all for today :)

explorace

i was joining an explorace last saturday and it was tired but fun. we are all the PGG members were devided into 10 groups and guess what, we are all not knowing each other. at first i thought its gonna be a trouble in communicating. but later, it was going smoothly.

there are 8 check point that we had to pass. the first check point was called pink check point and we have a game called "bergu".we pass all the 5 words given. second check point was quite interesting where two of us need to be a representative to sing several national song. the game was called " jangan lupa lirik" just like at Astro. next was not a game. it is just like a duty. we have to clean a car that been dirty by flour. we are just given two pail of water and a bit of soap, with two towels. thats all we have to make the car clean. owh, there were many more. lots of fun to tell here.

oh, mcd just come ack from Hong kong. she said HK was a best place. but i dont have any intention to go there.

i am following the economy index of japan recently and i found that the rate of their economy was not as stable as before. it was going down until -2.4%... i think it is quite dangerous for japan.

i was home sick last day.. miss my family..huhu

its my birthday!!!

last two days was my birthday and i found out that there are several people who didnt wish me yet. :D

wrong class... oooopps!

my day seems to be good. i woke up at 6, after subuh, at 7 i when to the female stadium, doing my exercise and get ready to class at 9.30 am. the class is start at 10 am, so i hope that i will no late for my first class. i checked my schedule, take a look at the venue and it stated that i have to go to the IRK 2 1.25. it is my sirah class. the ustaz came then, and my friend and i were exited to get the front sit. we are the earlier students that got in to the class. and suddenly, the ustaz is talking in arabic and i feel something has going wrong. ustaz gives me the list name to tick the attendance, and i look at the subject name, oh my god!!! its mot my class. i get in into the wrong class. he started to ask everybody's name in arabic, started to write in arabic and i realized that i will be the first girl that will introduce my self. my freind had started to ask me to tell the ustaz that we had a wrong venue. with a huge ashame, i make my move and tell the ustaz the truth. we get out of the calss as cool as we can. hahaha. after that i called another friend to ask about the venue. it is beside the wrong class. thanks God the lecturer had not come in yet. the class is cancel and i came to the library to update my blog.

aizat AF5

i just know about this boy called aizat(gegar). he is a singer which i really admire his voice. this talented boy is physically big in the academy but he manages to loose his weight now. i just saw him on tv, an wow!! he make a new appearence to his style. let's compare how is he before and now.

BEFORE

he was big,curly hair and just look untidy on his wear.

AFTER

and this is the new look of aizat. he was at muzik@Ria programe with hani the host of muzik@Ria. aizat handsome!

pilihlah aku-sleeq

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im home.

after being at kedah for almost 3 months, i am very happy for coming home. at last, i will able to meet my friends. especially eizzah :D . after this i will go out to renew my licence. maybe for three years. i just have 2 days more to spent at penang. i will go to kl on wednesday. my registration is on the 6th of july. means,my life will return to be a student which surrounded by rules. but its ok because i love that title. it wll brings me to the successful life. insyaallah~

fitri masok panggung!!!

haha... we might say what we hate, but affraid your words :D

suka-suka

I've been spend my 3months holiday at my village. taking care for my aunt. i think that is a good thing to do. but as a normal teen (am i??), the feeling of bored always come and go when there is nothing to do. my job here is not difficult as i thought. just feeding her when she cant eat well. sometimes she looks as a normal person, very fine. and i had thought once that she might created the bad situation of her to get a sympathy from us. but when i think about it again, its hard to make our self in a bad situation. people cant cry for the whole day, non-stop! cannot! but my aunt just did it. so, i guess she got a problem with her psychology. she need an psychologist. but villagers always think in a different way. they prefer to see the 'village doctor'. fortunately it makes she looks better than before. she can eat by herself now. just sometime she cry as she used to be before.

as long as i've been here, many beautiful and weired things i saw. i like to go out, snapping pics and jogging around my village, and found a few beautiful bird's nest hanging on a coconut tree. the shape is long, thin on its top and getting bigger at the end. it got two holes. there is another nest which from the same spices of bird on a top of rubber tree. but it is only with one hole. both are very tidy and unique. overall i can say about it is, it use a lot of creativity. another nest is stated in a tree like we often see. the normal nest of birds.

the weired things...erm.. umi come to me this week. she will be here until friday. haha. im glad. many things i have to buy. and i had list them all. just wait for my mum to...SHOPPING!!!!
the happiest thing for women.

*reunion aka flash back memories*

we got a reunion last week. i guess, this reunion is more meaningful than before. i dont know why, but i just feel that way. before the reunion, there is a function at my school. regarding the 2nd decade of my school's old, we had a great meeting between parents and teacher, and also a carnival. most of the students participated in progressing the carnival. for me, it was a great day that the whole school had contributed.

i met with my two besto frent! mama wie n fitri. haha...both are getting matured. widad looks serious with arif. but the relationship is a bit complicated. i feel sorry when i saw her face in a sad expression. i know that she dont want to loose arif. from her talk, i can imagine that arif is a kind hatred person, caring about her, but may be he just dont know how to show it. plus, the situation of him makes he act in that way.

unexpected love story...erm, used to be a love story i guess. hehehe.. i dont know and never cross in my mind that fitri used to have an affair with timah adnan. my junior. its not a funny thing for me. by that, i just realize that timah is actually not like what we seen her as her. yeah, women still have a 'small feeling' what people call 'naluri ingin di sayangi'.

this is another unexpected case that widad, fitri and i had to go trough. it goes like this, because of that is my first time i met fitri, he ask me to send him at the bus station. his bus was at 2.30pm. we move from m3 at 12, and had our launch at kangar. he went with his friends and i went with widad to kfc. at 2 pm, he came to us. but we just started to eat. and i think he will miss the bus if he wait for us. so i told him,

"balik next bus la...bas ke ipoh byk x?"
"sapa nk byr..."
"aku la.."
"btoi?"
"yup."
widad add, " kiteorg share aa, bila lagi mau blanja ko"

then we decided to postpone the time. after we prayed, we go straight to the bus stop and, no!!!! there is no bus to ipoh at the evening. the early bus is at 9pm. God knows how guilty i am towards fitri. if only i finish up my lauch quickly, things like this will not happened. at the end, we spent our day at kangar. just three of us. hahaha. the unexpected experience. spending a day without any reasonable reason. kah3..

during dinner, there is another unexpected visitor show up. shaker. he is from my batch. he spoiled my mood with a stupid question that came out from his mouth...
"eh, dulu bkn ngn ehsan ke?"
stop. er... back to the real point.

after seeing him, widad's face is suddenly changed. if before, she said she got an head edge, but it disappear all of sudden. impressive! shaker brings an aura that cant be say by mouth. haha. and it changes widad.

overall, i am really, very, strongly, bravely said that i got a beautiful happiness on that day. with all the unexpected things, can make my day full of meaning.

japan haa??

what do u think about sudy aboard??

i need answers...

tq ;)

Thank You
for someone had thought me what is love,
back than i was not ok without u,
but now i am very sure that
i am fine without u,
runaway this time without u,
i take back my love that u r stealing,
for some one that i truely trusted.
Thank You
because of u i know which person are suitable for me,
and i just burry the old memory
in this song.

straitjacket feeling

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

pagi-pagi...

recently i got to go to the toilet every morning... hu...
and today i got scolded by jang. waaa...she knows about me n ustad. and she dont wanna us to be longer.. i ignore it. for me, the best that i can do now is pray to allah. i hope he dose too. and this is important, i guess. hehe..

the death note will be handing to ustad today. he wiil replace the owner of that book. haha... funny. i just use some page, and it will be given to someone. and he have to write a diary. that is the task for him.

o my God.. again, i need to go to the ladies....

nice song!

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blur in class..

i just came back from my poetry class. i don't know why everyone is blur in class just now. we did two poems just now, A Fantasy and Love is not all.

A fantasy is about a woman, who just lost her husband... and she have to start her new life as a widow. Earn her kids by her own, without her husband. everything is going to change. At the cemetery, she just looking at the folded hand of her husband. and suddenly her house is full of visitors. she sit stately, trying to be strong. not to cry. but deep inside, she wants all of them go back home. she wants to go to backwards. where there is only she and her husband. where there was their first kiss.

And the second poem is about love. at first the speaker is saying that love is not all. not foods and drinks.not a shelter that we can live in. not something that we can hold on when we drowning.but somehow, many a man are getting died without enough love. sometimes, she feels that she wants to sell all her love to get peace. to get some food when she was in a difficult time. she thinks she would do that, but no. she can't do that actually because for her love is everything.
hemm... what do you think? does the poet being sarcastic?

in da lib~

just drop by coz i miss my blog.. lalala~

~sleepy morning~

huhu. i slept again after subuh prayer... while sms-ing papa.. then he called me.. hehe... (thanks ya!) then, after i had done all works that i left yesterday, i went to lib at 10.30am. reading my new short stories, The country's doctor... given by madam yesterday. written by Malay's author.
she did write form 5 short story, 'Bunga Telur and balley shoes' (if i wasn't mistaken).

And now i'm really2 hungry. waiting for sue and yana... their class didn't finish yet. and i'm getting cold being in lib for a long time. and, i decided to wait them at cafe... everyday is just the same thing that i done.. waiting for them before eating. huhuhu..